Oh my. I haven't been here for so long I deserved that nudge >_< *rubs her backside*

Really, I'm well and .. well, dunno what else. Lookie, pretty picture I made yesterday! *distracts*

So, apparently, it's comme il faut to make a wishletter *had no idea* @_@

Public to private - On Yule matters, part II (and last).

( My dearest author )

Damn the flu, I'm so not feeling well *flops* But as it goes on and on, I presumed that just as well I might drag myself to the pc and take a look at the Yuletide assignment *unhealthy giggles* Behold! The only assignment choice I know anything of I'm willing to plunge into can be described by my favourite 5-letter word, C at the front, A in the middle. Gotta be fun.

I want to hear all that swearing (c) shiva_lain

I had a high-school class reunion on Sunday. I haven't seen those people for over 6 years. There appeared what, 9 people, and our classroom teacher. We knew each other for 2 years; some were studying together later, some weren't. They were not even the company I had kept.

Am I too easy-going and tolerant? Am I forgetful? Or am I doing something wrong? Honestly, I fairly liked our meeting.

I can faintly perceive from my memories that these weren't the best times of my life. I learned "freedom" and "peace of mind" during my uni time. But back then, during my high school years, I learned "shiny" and "special", something I couldn't get to be until much later. We were special, alien to each other and all together inside the school; and I was there as well, opposing teachers and jumping out of a second-floor window to walk on the porch roof on sunny April days, to be caught by a supervisor, and, by a twist of fate I've completely forgotten about, gaining an unrestricted access to the lab's server to spend free hours browsing internet on astrophysics and chaos theory.

It wasn't a good time, really. But when I look back now, it's okay it was. And I'm glad I could meet those people, and smile at them, and laugh with them, and promise not to forget.

*looks at clock sadly* When I'm dead, I hope to be buried under piles of fanfiction print-outs, manga books and anime dvds.

....Skipping on the issues over issues of work, by the end of the day, I really wanted to beat someone to death with a November issue of Zerosum (which is wtf-shameless-fanservice-cover. but since it's 83, it's ftw-shameless-fanservice-cover, perfectly excusable and a must-get). Korean eased my mind somewhat, I can't read very well, but the teacher is good, tries to put some system into scattered algorythms...

[ETA] Ah! I think it was snowing for the first time today ^_^ Late Autumn.
[ETA2] I'm trying to think Yule, grr~ can't think up fandoms at all can't think at all.

Extending a dialogue with someone who isn't listening anymore, reaching out a bridge into the night, I open the balcony door and smell how the autumn sweeps out traces of living and fills the void with dry leaves. The sun stole the last of warmth and has been taken away for safekeeping for months to come. Like with the Langoliers gnawing on yesterday, the world is emptied and dissolved in the gold and rains.

Soo~ Finally, I bought glasses.

Yes, I have a perfect eyesight! I'm shallow that way! But when I am shallow and have cool glasses, no one cares.
*studies the art of polishing*

......While I was out of it, Ishida Akira DYED HIS HAIR @__________@ I've just seen Newtype 10. He is blond-ish *ded*

..sorry..

Also I kinda caught a cold =\

There should've been a lot of rambling on the festival and my presents, but I kinda can't concentrate on anything at the moment except for Ishi-kun's hair X_X

ETA: ISHIDA rebranding~~

MY DAY IS MADE.

( fannish )

Light-hearted, I'm off to an ani-fest, back on Monday.

Being particularly cold and tired, I start hallucinating a warm apple pie smell; a homemade apple pie. I can go on and on, recalling its taste and texture, and how it is heavy and slightly moist, just taken out of a pan; how I cut it, hot, for the first time, and the sweet smoothness crumbles, staining knife with apples' soft translucent core; how I pick out dry brown slices peeling off from the top, leaving misshaped craters like a first god on the surface of this wounded cinnamon moon; and a piece of it is living-flesh-warm in my mouth - I lick sticky fingers; because, naturally, there is nothing in the whole world better than this.

But I have remembered why I went on lj first thing at work today.

Because I'm drooling all over the new GitS:Solid State Society movie, and noone is willing to share the fan-ness (Aww.) I watched it last night with chinese subtitles (adds excitement to the as-per-usual-obscure storyline and a lot of talking on uncommon topics).

Since I don't think anyone reading this cares to ever watch it, I'll allow myself microscopic spoilers in the following rambling and won't cut it.

The highlight of the movie was, as I strongly feel, Togusa's predicament. (Yes, he is my fave, but yet it's not a bias!.. Almost certainly so.) If I hadn't been so blissfully oblivious about the chronological place of SAC:SSS in the GitS universe ("uh, but he survived up to the next part, right?.. right?"), I'd've worried about him XDD Also, it was so touching when Batou fell on his knees with "zomgAAARGH" outlook, as far as he is able to be "aargh", at least. Not for the first time I feel that Major shines, but the aforementioned duo makes their best for the show, and successfully so.

PS. The outdoor scenes with Saito are so~ great *___* Can't wait to see a good quality version (with english subtitles ;___;).. but the dvd is out in November.

ooh. I haven't done this in a while.

( personality meme )

The explanation part seemed pretty accurate, as well... *looks* No neuroticism?...do I have any business being on lj?

Because of my sad excuse of life, today we had a Family Dinner (tm). My parents were reminiscing of my younger years~


( thanks for the memory )

PPS. Backdating posts is NOT a good idea.

Err. As some of you might know, I'm, in fact, pretty much alive. But, spending most of the daytime working, I'm not at all inclined to follow online matters ~_~

Sigh. It's not even that I don't know what to post about, but not enuff drivel. And reading it every day seems to be so much trouble *flops*

On the other hand, now I actually have time to read fiction books and articles of my professional field. Eljay tends to eat a huge amount of that time. And watching, I'm catching up on that by leaps and perhaps should do a kind of summary post....

It would be a lie to say I don't miss it, but I can't figure out how to cut out time for everything including sleeping.

Browsing through my drawings folder, I happened upon some stuff of fanart nature, which had been there for so long it should've been either deleted or.. deleted, really.

First one was abandoned due to inconsistency, it seems. I retouched it some, and then some more, and then once again after I woke up the following morning,.. not sure that it helped.
( final edition (one step further since g_m crosspost) )

The second sketch is posted "as is", and due to it being dated around last autumn, I have no idea about the reasoning behind. The file timestamp was ~2am, too....

While looking at it, basic universal questions come to mind: how did it begin, what is the meaning of existence, is there life out there, and of course, do i have more of the weed i was apparently smoking at the time?

( omake )

*skipskipskip**runs around some* There is a proper way to solve things, a wrong way, and the ..Chaosd way. My way, def: 1) the way with most collateral damage to myself and everyone around. 2) definitely not the one normal people would use.
Something just clicks in my head, like a switch or a transmission shifting, and gears start spinning in overdrive until the goal is reached, however pointless in itself. Like getting a camera. Like quitting my job. Like hacking away till 2am.*skipskipskip*

Otherwise, my life is simply spectacular ^.^ I just can't quite keep up with it.

PS. Zerosum 06 for whoever is as lazy as me.

You won't believe how much cruel and unusual geography one might get while not leaving some 40-km diameter... Well, in fact, every geography is at least wildly unusual to me...

The thing I like about RDD (Rapid Drawing Development) is that you don't return to it after mostly everything is complete to moan that omg! that and that and that needs to be redrawn completely! and further you redraw, suckier the drawing gets, and when you have finished, it sucks on a new, higher, more detailed level.

..I know that Minekura is aiming at long and windy character development. I know that every goal is a fsking excuse. But.

( brief efficiency rant involving Sanzo from my ivory fantower in a cursed mentality forest )